Guys, I waited until after the second national semifinal was over (congratulations to North Carolina, BTW- here's to their game with Michigan State on Monday being better and more conpetitive than the one in December) before I posted this.
I didn't want to derail your attention from the game- it's more important than what I have to say, but I wanted to get something off my chest.
I have a lot of emotions on me and I need to pour them out so I can things off my stomach that have been boiling over recently.
This is not an attempt to garner sympathy- this is me giving you the whole truth and nothing but the truth.
Since I joined this site, I have had a lot of fun (and always enjoy coming here), but lately, I'm making attention for all the wrong reasons.
I have been screwing things up on here since late March- I've alienated Bill, one of my buddies (I'm not going to badmouth you at all- I would never stoop to that level) and my opinions are drawing more ire these days, and I got on Ramy's nerve by being critical of his beloved Kentucky.
Bill, you have every right to be mad at me and put me on ignore.
Let me say- I have strong opinions on teams, but one thing I would NEVER do is badmouth any site members.
Guys, I'm not perfect- when two teams play others and the team I root for does not win, I won't be happy about it and, recently, it's gotten me in hot water.
I have my flaws, but truth be told, I've got some problems that go beyond this site- I am trying to lose some weight (something I've struggled with my entire life- I'm not joking), I got a really bad score on my recent science test, and I have a semester that includes five very draining classes.
The classes and grades are contributing to something I can admit and will not deny- my posts and their meaning taking a turn for the worse.
(If you were ever to meet me in right life, I am a bit different from my online alter-ego. I talk big on here, but personally, I'm real sensitive and do admit to being emotional.)
Something that is as just as important to me as seeing a team I want to see win win.
I want to be the poster I know I am, but by doing so, I have been doing more bad things that good.
But, as I said before, I am NOT going to leave this site- not now, not ever. I don't believe in quitting- after all, quitters never win, and I don't want to be a quitter- that's not the type of person I am.
I'm going to fight my way through this for I know there this is a light at the end of the tunnel, and hopefully, it'll save me before I burn myself out and alienate everyone on this site forever.
You guys are like brothers to me (or, in Sandra's case, like a sister)- BillD, anders, uncrules, Wozniak, mccoy, cybok, hancox, HDMM, SkyHi, cjwct, mets82, rey, The_Insider, Salsadancer, Black_Hitachi, russ from rhody, boomer, Iceberg, and anyone else that I forgot to mention. I care so much about you guys!
Still, I am not saying you have to forgive me for my bad actions. You are entitled to your own rights, as am I. If you want to ignore me- you have every right to. I am not going to deny you the rights that you have.
I am NOT going to do any more soul-searching and take time off- rather, I'm going to post less if I am not in the greatest of moods. If I'm feeling good, I'll be able to post more. If I'm not or busy, then there may be nights when I don't post frequently on here.
As god as my witness, I am never, ever going to give up. I'm going to keep getting up and trying again.
Now, I'm going to get a good night's sleep- I'll see you guys tomorrow.
For now, good night.
I didn't want to derail your attention from the game- it's more important than what I have to say, but I wanted to get something off my chest.
I have a lot of emotions on me and I need to pour them out so I can things off my stomach that have been boiling over recently.
This is not an attempt to garner sympathy- this is me giving you the whole truth and nothing but the truth.
Since I joined this site, I have had a lot of fun (and always enjoy coming here), but lately, I'm making attention for all the wrong reasons.
I have been screwing things up on here since late March- I've alienated Bill, one of my buddies (I'm not going to badmouth you at all- I would never stoop to that level) and my opinions are drawing more ire these days, and I got on Ramy's nerve by being critical of his beloved Kentucky.
Bill, you have every right to be mad at me and put me on ignore.
Let me say- I have strong opinions on teams, but one thing I would NEVER do is badmouth any site members.
Guys, I'm not perfect- when two teams play others and the team I root for does not win, I won't be happy about it and, recently, it's gotten me in hot water.
I have my flaws, but truth be told, I've got some problems that go beyond this site- I am trying to lose some weight (something I've struggled with my entire life- I'm not joking), I got a really bad score on my recent science test, and I have a semester that includes five very draining classes.
The classes and grades are contributing to something I can admit and will not deny- my posts and their meaning taking a turn for the worse.
(If you were ever to meet me in right life, I am a bit different from my online alter-ego. I talk big on here, but personally, I'm real sensitive and do admit to being emotional.)
Something that is as just as important to me as seeing a team I want to see win win.
I want to be the poster I know I am, but by doing so, I have been doing more bad things that good.
But, as I said before, I am NOT going to leave this site- not now, not ever. I don't believe in quitting- after all, quitters never win, and I don't want to be a quitter- that's not the type of person I am.
I'm going to fight my way through this for I know there this is a light at the end of the tunnel, and hopefully, it'll save me before I burn myself out and alienate everyone on this site forever.
You guys are like brothers to me (or, in Sandra's case, like a sister)- BillD, anders, uncrules, Wozniak, mccoy, cybok, hancox, HDMM, SkyHi, cjwct, mets82, rey, The_Insider, Salsadancer, Black_Hitachi, russ from rhody, boomer, Iceberg, and anyone else that I forgot to mention. I care so much about you guys!
Still, I am not saying you have to forgive me for my bad actions. You are entitled to your own rights, as am I. If you want to ignore me- you have every right to. I am not going to deny you the rights that you have.
I am NOT going to do any more soul-searching and take time off- rather, I'm going to post less if I am not in the greatest of moods. If I'm feeling good, I'll be able to post more. If I'm not or busy, then there may be nights when I don't post frequently on here.
As god as my witness, I am never, ever going to give up. I'm going to keep getting up and trying again.
Now, I'm going to get a good night's sleep- I'll see you guys tomorrow.
For now, good night.
